A Greene Man’s Blog

Putting the Pieces Together

Originally uploaded by Daniel Greene

I need to take a break from Flickr and piece together some new creative projects.

Instead of writing books, scholarly articles, creating and presenting workshops, putting on singing concerts, or any number of other things I might do, I’ve spent the past two years and two months on Flickr. Lately, as you can see, I’ve been weaning myself from the constant level I kept up for two years. I’ve been shooting fewer photos and only posting three photos a day– or fewer. I’ve been working on jigsaw puzzles — like this one — rather than spending so much time on photos and Flickr. Even if I do nothing but puzzles, reading books (which I’ve been doing a lot more of), and watching TV, it would be better than spending so much time on photography and Flickr. Sure, I could spend more time on photography and try to make it pay, but that’s another career I don’t feel like making a go of right now. I’d rather make more of my ASL interpreting career.

I’ve been interpreting and going to interpreting workshops for the past 18+ years. Babies have been born and raised to adulthood while I’ve been taking workshops from other interpreters. It’s time that I started teaching workshops rather than just attending them. Maybe I’m being too hard on myself, but that’s how I feel about it. I have a lot of experience, knowledge, and insight, and I want to make something of it. I now have a workshop outlined and scheduled for November 22 from 9am-3pm.

I’m also a performing artist. I’m contracted to sing in the chorus of the opera Aida at the Orpheum Theatre with the Phoenix Opera on Friday, January 30, at 7:30 and Sunday, February 1 at 2:00. I’ve never been in a grand opera before, and I’m nervous. I need to focus my energies on this project, and rehearsals begin in December.

In addition to that, Andy & I are going on a two-week European vacation in October. I want to spend more time with Andy getting familiar with the places we’ll be visiting.

Since I joined Flickr in July 2006, I’ve created and administered three groups, and I’ve organized half a dozen FlickrMeets. It’s time to pass the baton. I’ve recruited, promoted, and trained co-admins in my groups. It is now up to them to either take over running the groups or recruit other co-admins or moderators to help them. And I trust that if members want meetups, then members will organize them.

I don’t mean to come off like, "Bye all y’all bitches! You can kiss my ass!" Believe me, whatever anger I feel is toward myself for once again diving too deeply into something, taking on too much responsibility, and burning out. I have enjoyed all the cameraderie, teaching, learning, sharing, laughs, tears (now and then), and the adventure of this experiment with this new medium (or should I say forum) we call Flickr. It’s just that I can’t imagine myself doing what I’ve been doing for another two years and two months.

I’ll still put up a photo now and again, and I still look forward to The Farm at South Mountain FlickrMeet on Saturday, October 18th, at 7:30 AM. I’ll just have to keep Flickr to a minimum while I turn other dreams into realities.

Chained to the Sea

Originally uploaded by Daniel Greene

Just as a boat is chained to the sea, sometimes I feel chained to Flickr.

I am now going through the 420 photos I took during the six days of my trip. Four hundred and twenty photos that all came out well. Yes, there are some things that I took multiple shots of in order to get the best one, but still… how do you work your way through all that and post it on Flickr without boring people? I’ve been limiting myself to posting only three or four photos a day so that people will look at them, which seems to be working, except I have to ask myself why I share all these photos with the world. I took this working vacation on my own, and one of the reasons I took these photos was to share them with my husband, Andy, who couldn’t come on the trip with me. That makes sense to me– to want to share with my husband everything I wish I could have shared with him while we were apart. And I suppose it makes sense to want to share photos with family and close friends. But I’m starting to wonder why I care whether people I’ve never met will stop and look at my photos. I hardly make any money giving my photos away. I could write travel articles and get paid for the work I put into taking, geotagging, editing, organizing, naming, describing my photos… but I don’t. Instead, I spend several hours each day on the computer and on Flickr. I post photos and look at other people’s photos. I enjoy this, but often it seems like work.

I sometimes look at what I do as a creative outlet, and a chance to share information with others just for the sake of sharing. I guess there’s a part of me that appreciates all the hard work other amateur photographers and bloggers put into what they publish, and I want to give back. I’ve always had a work ethic that demanded that I contribute to my community, be it local or global. So I guess this is my contribution.

But I have a B.A. in English, and I often think I should be writing for a living instead of writing for nothing. And with my 18 years of experience as an American Sign Language interpreter, I think I should be developing and presenting workshops on interpreting, or even writing books about it. But I’m not. So why do I keep giving away hours of my day, day after day, to Flickr? I don’t know. I guess, in a weird way, I’m lonely. I have a husband and two dogs, a few close friends and family who love me, yet I still crave an audience. I want to communicate with people, have them listen to me, receive their response and feedback. But couldn’t I do that as a writer? Sometimes I fear that in the process of communicating with images I am losing the ability to communicate with words. Perhaps it is my purpose in life to paint images with words, not just by capturing them in photographs. It is harder to say what you want with words than it is with images… or is it? I guess if the image above said it all then I wouldn’t be writing this now; would I?

I don’t have answers to any of these questions yet. But I need to keep thinking about what else I should be doing with my life and how being chained to Flickr may be stopping me from fulfilling my potential as a human being. I don’t need to prove that I can take a good photo. I know I can. But then again, one doesn’t do something again and again just to prove he can do it, does one? I mean, if I write a best-selling book, I will have proven that I can write a good book, but I’d still probably want to write another book, and another, and another.

I do know that I get a lot out of photography. The act of shooting photos is meditative; it allows me (or forces me) to really look at things, to see them from various angles, to see them as they are and to capture them as I imagine them. And when I take photos of people or other animals, looking at the photographs afterward helps me to see them, to really gaze at them and take them in in a way that might not feel comfortable for either me or my subject in the moment. I also get to explore my moods and the moods of others, including the earth’s (if you can consider a cloudy day or the flowers of spring as an expression of the earth’s “moods”). My moods often mirror those of the earth, and through capturing images at those times I can share my own feelings with other people.

I do have a need to be seen and heard. Always have. Call it what you will, but I accept it as a fact about myself. I have almost never worked behind the scenes. Even the work I have done behind the scenes (writing, photography) ends up in the public eye. So just about everything I’ve ever done for money or for nothing has been for an audience. Heck, look at what I make my living at nowadays– interpreting phone calls, being heard by hearing people and watched by deaf people.

I hate to think that I need to keep writing, acting, singing, photographing, etc. to feel loved and lovable. I would like to believe that I am loved and lovable regardless of how much I produce or create. I sometimes wonder if it is the occasional photo that gets a lot of response and/or ends up in Flickr’s Explore pages that keeps me going, makes me feel like a star for a day, gives me the feeling of being not alone, but a member of a global family. I don’t know. Whatever my reasons are, I aim to practice moderation and feel completely unchained and free to choose just how much Flickring I do.

100,000 Views on Flickr

Originally uploaded by Daniel Greene.

I knew this day was coming for the past month or so, so I prepared. I deleted about 1,500 photos that didn’t get many views and probably weren’t very interesting to people. In the process of revising them, I learned that people like photos that tell a story right from the thumbnail and that reward them with satisfaction for clicking on the thumbnail to view the photo because they are special, unique, beautiful, exciting, strange, or otherwise intriguing. I also learned not to post so many versions of the same thing. Usually one is enough. If I’m down to two photos of something now, I force myself to pick one.

Since I have over 5,000 photos, I have created a Collection that I call my Portfolio to give you a look at other Flickrites’ favorites and mine; this Collection contains three sets with 36 images each in the three main types of photograph: Portrait, Landscape, and Still Life. I might play around with the categories in the future, but I plan to keep this set at the top of my home page and rotate photos in and out of it, never exceeding around 100 (or 108, as the case is now).

I appreciate your views. Your views, comments, and faves have taught me a lot about what people want to see. I will still take photos for myself, but now I have a better sense of what interests others.

Since I joined Flickr in August 2006, I have enjoyed meeting people both in my own region and all over the world. Worldwide members of Flickr who have shown me the world through their eyes. Thank you for taking the time to see the world through my eyes.